Ok.. I lost all my details, took a while to get them all back, NOW I can start posting :)

for starters, I was with an abusive guy with a lot of problems, as said in my profile. I have a journal which can be seen here:

http://lightwave.proboards48.com/index.cgi?board=journal&action=display&thread=1111013330&page=1

Its long - but possibly a worthy read, since it has a lot of my history. Some of it shows the confusion and desperation in my life - it shows my growth aswell.

There IS light at the end of the tunnel. I'm living free of abuse now and life just gets better by the day. I am still extremely cautious, I still get confused, but life is more or less back to normal for me.

The best thing I could have done for myself was to join support groups, without it, I wouldn't be living a fulfilling life - I'd still be in the state of depression and low self-esteem.

glad to be free.

I'll keep blogging here, with future progress - and also will relate my difficult times that relate to my past.

Freya