Ok.. I lost all my details, took a while to get them all back, NOW I can start posting :)

for starters, I was with an abusive guy with a lot of problems, as said in my profile. I have a journal which can be seen here:

http://lightwave.proboards48.com/index.cgi?board=journal&action=display&thread=1111013330&page=1

Its long - but possibly a worthy read, since it has a lot of my history. Some of it shows the confusion and desperation in my life - it shows my growth aswell.

There IS light at the end of the tunnel. I'm living free of abuse now and life just gets better by the day. I am still extremely cautious, I still get confused, but life is more or less back to normal for me.

The best thing I could have done for myself was to join support groups, without it, I wouldn't be living a fulfilling life - I'd still be in the state of depression and low self-esteem.

glad to be free.

I'll keep blogging here, with future progress - and also will relate my difficult times that relate to my past.

Freya

I'm here..

So I will feel my way around for a bit, then post something more meaningful.

Today is Friday, pay day thank goodness. Finding it difficult to make ends meet right now, but being scrupulous with my cash. Found today, with bills paid etc, I may finally be making progress yay! Have managed to put some money away for Christmas - I hope I don't need to dig into that stash again!

My days are getting easier, for people to understand this, I guess I should post my whole story, which I'll do when I am child free - maybe tomorrow or sunday.

cheers